April 15 – A Hollow Space Left

Those broken eyes
Sad, lonely light to live with

Candle wicks now fading
Heart stolen with the evening wind

A broken plate rests on the dark walnut floors
Shattered pieces, disconnected memories

An empty seat, impression in the cushion of something that should have lasted longer than a spark.

A dangerous silence
Calloused hands wrap around empty promises

Cold food that would have been
Could have been a beginning mid-book

Tabletop filled with nothingness, desolate with tattered chords of maybes, then with a hollow aching goodbye. Longer than the slow motion swaying of a walk to and out the door.

The click the only sound left, deafening
Deafening…deafening…deafening

December 16 – On the Edge of a Precipice

You’ve ripped the heart out of me
Taken it with you wherever you’ve gone
And I am left here torn up and empty
Just waiting to mend or for you to return

I am leaking and bleeding
My tears falling down to drown out the world
And I can’t stop the hurting from consuming me
Just waiting to scar or for you to return

My eyes feel half blind
Watching time pass me by, unforgiving
And I try to fight the feeling I’m fading
Just waiting to scab or for you to return

I’m sure that I’m dying
With this hole in my chest growing in size
And nothing will fill it, no stitching to sew
Just waiting to die or for you to return

– Tegan Thuss

July 27 – Thick with Lies

You said “forever”
I said “that’s just a word you read in a book one time, that you never even finished”

You said “I promise”
I said “that’s just a prayer you overheard someone else saying, but never learned yourself”

You said “I’m sorry”
I said “that’s a pretty poem you’ve practiced in your head, I don’t think you quite get the reference”

You said “I love you”
I said “that’s just an excuse some sad boy said to a girl he actually cared for, you don’t know the meaning”

You looked at me with those so sure eyes, that I’ve said the right thing stance, that you are mine grasp
I sighed, turned around, let my shoulders fall and walked away
Goodbye hanging in the silent air between us

– Tegan Thuss